Super Watch

I did kept my promise that I bought 2 birthday presents to my honey this year. I miss it last year as that time my situation was quite bad and quite emergency so I really have no mood to shop for present and my honey also don't want any present except my health. Anyway thank you God for letting me to celebrate his birthday this year. Previously I bought him a perfume as he is crazy with perfume nowadays. For the second present, I think of get him something very solid and something that can last very very long time, hopefully forever. I decided to get him a nice watch. We had been talked about watch long time ago, we both also agreed that if we carry a good nice watch and we can pass this watch to our next generation and keep passing it down as the family things - 'ka chuen zi bao' haha. Just a funny thinking. Anyway, I hope one day we may success this dream. Nice watch honey, glad you own it now :-)

Little present from God

Many many years ago, N years ago, I had been shopping at some where, not sure at KL or outstation or oversea, I spotted this little glass with meaningful words engraved on it, I just found that it was very cute, very nice and feel like buying it, but it is something related to Christian and I am not Christian that time. Anyway, at the end I decided to bought it and I have it put under my drawer until now. I guess I never "use" it as I feel it is Christian thingy so it just been hide under the drawer for so many years!! Just about a month ago, I am browsing my drawer for some small gift to be sent to my friend and I reveal it. I still feel it is very nice and so now I put it on my TV table. The quote is nice and thank you God for giving me this message, I would love to surrender myself to You and I believe that God, You will take care of everythings. Praise God, this is so amazing.

Very Confusing

I back to hospital for chemo today. This time the chemo is done in a way that different from last time that I did about a year ago. Doctor put a tiub inside my abdomen and it come out on my skin leaving a wound there. The chemo drug is directly pump into this tiub and goes inside that specific area for a better result. That tiub is called Tenckhoff catheters. The nurse at Pantai Bangsar Hospital teached and told me to do clean up dressing for my wound, and it has to be done on everyday basis. The process must be performed in very clean environment, my hand must be super clean as once it gets inflection then a lot more troublesome. I learn and I did it for about a week. Thanks God the wound is ok so far.

Today the leader nurse at Wijaya saw my wound and keep complaining that I shouldn't do the dressing everyday!!! She said patient should NOT do the dressing for these kind of wound. It has to be done by them - expert. She said they have another patient also carrying this kind of tiub and she did the dressing for her once a week, cover with water proof bendage. Thanks God. I do really feel better if she can do the dressing for me and save me from doing it kelam-kabut-ly every day. haha. Too bad I bought quite a lot dressing set, anyway I just bring it to hospital to use lo since already purchased.

About my blood test, not good, the tumour marker go up doubled the figure before operation. Oh no, I really have no idea what wrong but then I just hand all these to God, only He knows how to heal me, He is my healer. Doctor said he is 'pening kepala' today as one of the chemo drag he choosed for me but can't use as I remind him that I alergy with it last time, grrrrr. I surrender everythings to God.

To My In-Law Family

To Pa and Ma
I feel very sorry to you both. I only able to be your health daugther-in-law for one month only. I am not able to take care you both but instead I need ah Ma to come KL to take care me after the operation. Thank you so much for helping me, cooking health dish for me, handing me a cup of milk or water while I am hardly walk after the operation. I really appreciate it. May God bless you both and always be with you both.


To El Von

Thank you so much for keep me in your prayer. Thanks for the caring and concern, you are really a very very nice girl. I do keep you in my prayer too. May God bless you and hope you get to meet a nice guy who love you a lot.


To El Sen

Your working time is unpredictable. I have not much time to see you at home. I feel that you are a nice and simple guy. This world full of evil people so have to be smart and not to get bully by them. Try to observe things that surround you and think more, I guess all these may help you to be more alert. I don't feel you making trouble at home at all, already get used to :p. haha not really le, no worry. May God bless you and hope you get a better job soon.

I love you all. Thanks for letting me have a good husband :-).

My Brother

我的弟弟

写到弟弟，我没有太多东西可以写。自小我和弟弟都是时常吵架的， 我总是被欺负，我笨吧， 还有妈妈一定要我让弟弟啊， 因他是唯一的男丁。弟弟自小就喜欢做买卖。记得他小时候在家后院的鱼池养了很多打架鱼，然后就一条条卖出去。到了新年，又与朋友一起拷肉干来卖。自己做老板是他的梦想。谢谢你买37寸的LCD电视放在二庭给我看，因没有辐射。谢了，我祈求上帝保佑你事业顺利，一家人平安快乐。铭森真的很可爱，可惜我没有太多时间与他玩，不然他一定也会像靖儿，永欣那样在面对镜头时总会出两个手指，V 哈哈。

My Younger Sister

我的妹妹

妹妹与我是年龄比较接近，所以我们比较谈的来。我看到他结婚已后有很大的变化。回想起来以前和他同房时，我真的拿他没有办法，总是把房间弄得乱乱的，我是投降了，自己搬到storeroom去睡。现在的他是2个小瓜的妈妈了。他家里都是清清洁洁的，煮饭菜还有一手呢。我很开心看到这一切。我相信有儿有女是一个人的福气，并不是每个人都能拥有的，得看啊上帝给不给这福份了。要好好珍惜，对一些人来说这幅份却是多么遥不可及! 谢谢你送我手链, 那重重的magic牌, peptomen, organic食物,还有很多很多……愿上帝赐福于你和你的家人,一家人都建建康康,永远辛福.

My Elder Sister

我的姐姐

姐姐长得像爸爸，黑黑的，但并不会不好看。可是近这十年来，姐姐用的美白产品很有效，他一点也不黑了。姐姐比我矮，有一次与姐姐和同事一同去Pulau Perhentian，大家都说他像我妹妹多一点，我听了只可以把嘴巴"DO"一下，必竟这是事实。我这个姐姐真的是天下第一大好人，每次要他帮忙时，他总是没有让人失望。人也没有半点脾气，总是站在别人的立场来分析事情。感谢上帝赐姐姐一个可爱的女儿。谢谢姐姐一直都帮我，谢谢你每次都原谅我的过错。祈求上帝与姐姐同在，赐福于他，保佑他不遭苦难。

My Mother

我的妈妈

一直以来，我和妈妈的关系是比较多话，比较多谈心的时候。我觉得自己像妈妈，不只是外貌，性格也很像。我遗传了妈妈的大脸，但是我并不觉得大脸难看哦。我的妈妈是个好妈妈，每天都会准备早餐给我，只要起床梳洗后，我就可以带那爱心早餐去上班了。生病以来，还要妈妈一日3餐煮给我吃。在做chemo的日子，我连站的体力都不多，真是要谢谢妈妈。我知道你也不是很舒服，可是还要你老人家来照顾我这个不孝女。我只有祈求上帝让我有多一次机会请你和爸爸去游玩，我知道你们都爱旅行。愿上帝赐福于爸妈。保佑妈妈身体建康。

My Father

我的爸爸

平常很少和爸爸聊天，真的是少之又少，可是我知道爸爸是爱我们的。虽然爸爸平常比较少话，但他和朋友喝茶时就不难会看到一个常建谈，对政治有自己一面见解的爸爸。生病以来，爸爸都是以自己的方式来表达他对我的关心。当我要每天到医院打针时，软弱的我只好要爸爸当我的司机了。在医院里，为了不吃到有味精的食物，也得劳烦爸爸带家里的饭菜来医院。其实爸爸并不喜欢到那间医院，因为他不熟悉那里的停车场，又不会用machine来付停车费。可是在我第2次动手术时，爸爸已经学会了。感谢爸爸，女儿不孝，不能照顾你老人家。我很庆幸以前我有一些钱时请了爸妈去泰国游玩。我们也去中国九寨沟，真的很好玩，很开心。大家都大开眼界。我要赞美上帝，制造了九寨沟这个人间仙境。爸爸，没有想到我能做到的只有那些了。可是无论未来的日子有多长，我会为你祷告，愿上帝保佑你平安快乐，身体建康。

Home Sweet Home

I just back to my home sweet home after 1 week staying at hospital. It was a nightmare and I did cry a lot. About a week time that I only can drink plain water, even milk or milo also not allowed! I was so hungry and the bed at hospital is very uncomfortable to lye whole day and night. Anyway I don't want to say so much about it. I am happy to be at home now. My leg still numb although it has been 2 weeks after the operation, hopefully the numbness will gone soon. Thanks God that I still able to walk.

I received a lot beautiful flowers from my aunties and uncle, from Jasmine Lee, and the purple roses from SeokPeng and YeeCheng. I like them so much. The flowers do make me smile for once at the hospital. Just too bad I only able to capture the photo of the flower by Jasmine Lee, with the cute bear bear. Thanks everyone for the flowers, for the visiting and special thanks to my auntie next door and my sister who take care me at night time. I hope I get to walk better soon because I want to get some presents for you all :-). May God bless you all.