I am NOT strong at all

Yes, I am not strong, actually I am very weak.

Weak in both fizical body and spiritual soul. My faith also dropped every times I heard the bad news from doctor. After some cries then I always told myself I must live happily for the rest of my life, stay happy and be together with my husband. But in reality, sometimes it is just very hard to do so. I am not scare of death, all thanks to Lord Jesus. Reason is this :
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
[John 3:16]".

I want to live, I want to be together with my husband, my family few more years. This is my prayer to the Lord. I understand that it is God's decision, I only can beg Him, hence I keep praying to Him. Frankly, I do have time when my faith very low......"give up" do appear in my taught.....well, I really can't handle at all. I think I will just bring all these to the Lord. Only He can help me.


I use this to encourage myself:-
I will have no fear of bad news;
my heart is steadfast,
trusting in the LORD.
[Psalm 112:7]